Archive for the ‘Theology’ Category

I have Louise Hay’s Heart Thoughts in my bathroom, and each morning I open to a random page to read and ponder. This morning I opened to the subject Time. She writes:

I am here at the right time.

We are all on an endless journey through eternity and the time we spend on this plane of action is but a brief instant. We choose to come to this planet to learn lessons and to work on our spiritual growth, and to expand our capacity to love. There is no right time and no wrong time to come and go. We always come in the middle of the movie and we leave in the middle of the movie. We leave when our particular task is finished. We come to learn to love ourselves more and to share that love with all those around us. We come to open our hearts on a much deeper level. Our capacity to love is the only thing we take with us when we leave. If you left today, how much would you take?

Sometimes I have felt oddly out of place in my life, and other times I know I’m right where I need to be.  In my young adulthood, I truly felt like I was born too late.  Perhaps the better way to articulate is to say I felt that I should have been born in the 50’s rather than the 60’s. I felt all that happened in the 60’s were definitely the environment I wanted to appreciate and be a part of at a more mature age.

In the 1980’s and 90’s I was quite unsettled and impatient. It was a time of searching – for a different life, for spirituality and knowledge, and in retrospect – searching for my true me.  Then the first dozen or so years of 2000 was so heavy with commitment, change, and some very heavy stuff. All that “stuff” is what has led me to the life I have now.  Sometimes I catch myself going down the ol’ what if road: what if I hadn’t sold the store, what if I had gone to nursing school earlier when the desire first bloomed, what if we hadn’t invested with that particular guy. Chasing my own tail is something I can get stuck doing, if I don’t straighten myself out of it.

So reading Louise Hay’s inner wisdom words on time has been good for me.  This year I find myself in a place I hadn’t previously envisioned. I ended up in a job that although I fervently fought it so much in the beginning, has turned out to be such a blessing.  And of all the jobs in my life, I sincerely feel that I am here at the right time.

Changing subjects now, I know the holidays are not fun or happy or good for a lot of people. I know this time of year can be very depressing or lonely and hard. During these hard times, I hope you find the strength to look back at happy memories, to revisit feeling good especially during this time of year; and to tap into your creative and playful self to build new moments and memories that help you.

I sincerely hope everyone finds opportunities to play this month – after all, isn’t this the month for festivities.  And as always, I wish you much peace and joy this month.


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My current class that I am taking is on Therapeutic Prayer. Which is a fascinating subject to me. What is wonderful about this class is that it is not on religion based prayer, but simply about prayer itself. When I was a child, I had learned that when I went to mass I should do all my asking before mass even started. And then I should give prayers of thanks and gratitude when I prayed after receiving communion. I cannot remember how or when I learned this. So as my spirituality broadened, so to did my concepts of prayers – and so have my questions on and about prayers.

In my studies I read A Prayer of an Unknown Confederate Soldier, and was deeply moved by his words and the way in which he prayed. This has given me much to ponder, and I wish to share this with you.

I asked God for strength that I might achieve;
I was made weak that I might learn to obey.

I asked for health that I might do great things;
I was given infirmity, that I might do better things.

I asked for riches that I might be happy;
I was given poverty that I might be wise.

I asked for power that I might have the praise of men;
I was given weakness that I might feel the need of God.

I asked for all things that I might enjoy life;
I was given life that I might enjoy all things.

I got nothing that I asked for,
but everything that I had hoped for.

Almost despite myself my unspoken prayers were answered;
I am, among all men, most richly blessed.

I have an inclination that I will be writing more on this subject. I  have many stories I could tell, and many questions I could ask. I welcome your comments, thoughts, and beliefs on prayer.

Wishing you peace and love.

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I just read that the tradition of the New Year’s Resolutions goes all the way back to 153 B.C. Janus, a mythical king of early Rome was placed at the head of the calendar.

The Romans named the first month of the year after Janus, the god of beginnings and the guardian of doors and entrances. He was always depicted with two faces, one on the front of his head and one on the back. Therefore he could look backward and forward at the same time- in other words, he could look back on past events and forward to the future.  At midnight on December 31, the Romans imagined Janus looking back at the old year and forward to the new, and many Romans looked for forgiveness from their enemies and also exchanged gifts before the beginning of each year.

This tradition doesn’t differ that much all these many years later. While we may not think of or even know of Janus, we do take time out to reflect on our lives and proclaim vows of change based on our actions of the past. Well, I’m not so sure about looking at what I can (or what I should) change about myself; instead to reflect on my journey and where I’ve been so that I can remember all that I’ve endured, shared, and experienced to be where I am now. To understand what all has transpired to make me what I am, and to appreciate this. All of us have had both good and bad things happened to us, and we all have things we wished we had done differently. But what I’m focusing more on is of being at peace with my past, centered in my life now. Embracing and accepting all that is Me. I’ve spent too many years wishing I was something ‘better’ than I was; I’m now focusing more on genuinely being and loving me.

As we turn the page on to a new year, I sincerely wish you all the best, much love, and good health.

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I recently read an article about a slightly different observance to Lent.  The true intention of Lent is of a preparation for the celebration of the death and resurrection of Jesus.  This preparation is to help wean people from sin. It is most common today to abstain from eating meat on Fridays. Some people take this a step further and give up something else, like eating sweets, or giving up getting a manicure during lent (all things I’ve heard); however, the article I read suggests thinking outside of the box. To give serious contemplation to what you wish to give up for Lent.

By giving up some mundane object for the 40-days, which really ends up being more of an inconvenience, dig deep into something you really want to give up. Some possible ideas the author suggested was to give up gossiping, aggressive driving, or speaking rudely to others. I really liked this, and I even thought of giving up ridiculing ourselves, or giving away of ourselves.  Idea’s like these show us how we could be more observant to the true meaning of spirit of Lent.

In this spring time of renewal, I wish you a renewed sense of energy, peace, and love within yourself on your journey.

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The other day I witnessed a women being escorted back into the store that she had just stole from. She had a shopping cart full of merchandise (food and other items) with an expression full of fear, embarrassment, and what I perceived as shame. I could hear people all around talking about what had just transpired, as the security guard made no secret of what she had done.  In all the murmuring from the crowd one woman boasted that she could tell by just looking at this woman she was a thief, and how she had told her boss to watch “this one”. Then I heard one man speak up on his hurt and disbelief of a society that is happy to condemn and arrest her instead of helping her. He viewed her as a fellow human trying to survive and being in need of help, and had he known he would have paid for her groceries. His outburst of care for this woman gave me reason to pause and evaluate my judgment.  Now I’m not going to say he’s right or wrong in his opinion, or that I saw some of the items in her cart and they were or were not the items of someone just trying to survive, nor am I going to say she doesn’t need to pay the consequence of her actions. But rather he did give me a lesson in casting judgment without knowing everything involved.

These times we are in are tough, and from what a good friend tells me they are only going to get harder. Plus this time of year can be very difficult and sad for some people.  I found this incident and his response to be quite thought-provoking. Tugging at the parts of me that want to be compassionate, caring and helpful; and on the other side, knowing that we can’t go around stealing and not living by the rules of our society and even morality. 

I feel this blog is left hanging, not complete. But I find it difficult to “wrap this up”. Judgement is a very heavy responsibility, and one I try not to do flippantly. I do believe that  if this woman had verbally asked for help someone would have helped. I do believe that we are a society that will not turn our backs on our fellow neighbor. I also know  this whole thing is very sad, and my prayers are with her – however they be best utilized.

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Last month I held a workshop on chakras in which I was asked about how I work with my chakras, and about my daily or routine practice. I answered that I do not have any set routine or regular habit I keep; rather I find opportunities to tap into them. This was never more true than this past week when I had minor surgery on my gums and teeth. I have had some painful experiences with previous dentists in my life, which have left me with some anxieties that I work on and through even to this day. Thankfully I have found a highly sensitive and caring dentist that has been instrumental in helping move past these anxieties, as well as restoring my confidence in dentistry. But when my new endodontist began with this procedure last week, I found myself in an even more unknown territory with dentistry. Mind you, I never felt anything they did and I will spare you the details of this procedure, except to say I have at least 6 stitches around my teeth and gums.

As I began to hear entirely new sounds (after all they are working where you internally hear what they are doing) I really found myself tensing and becoming quite stressed. Each time I sit in a dentist’s chair I look for ways to occupy my thoughts and ways to calm my body – this procedure was no exception. I began with my chakras, examining each – not for imbalances but for where I could go to feel more secure and safe. Instead of looking for something to fix, I looked within and found the chakra that provided me with comfort and refuge. What a totally effective and new experience this was for me. Using my chakra to help me – not me trying to help it!

I realized that this was something I had not discussed in any of my workshops on the chakras, I think because we’re all more preoccupied with fixing things about ourselves. As I’ve said many times, these workshops are tools to assist in understanding your body and your ‘self’ on your journey to wholeness. This was a new experience for me, using this chakra to tap into my own sense of security, to find comfort and calm within me. And I hope my experience will open new ideas within you. Happy exploring!

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