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As you know, I work for Hospice. I have been a home health aide for just shy of 2 years now. I know how the program works, I know what we do, I am an integral part of the Hospice team.  However, I also became a family member on the receiving end of Hospice. The team did not allow me to participate in my father in laws care; instead they told me to just be his daughter in law.

I always say I’m so lucky to have a job that I get paid to love people.  But to be on the receiving end of this changed my perspective.  I know we have a big impact on our patients and their families, they tell us all the time. To see how Hospice works from the family’s perspective was enlightening, very touching and heartwarming.

Most of us think and feel it is better to give than to receive. Well, sometimes we need to receive – and it’s not only ok, but very good for us to receive. Being on the receiving side I find myself short on words that genuinely tell the depth of our appreciation.

A week or so after my father in law’s passing one of our social workers checked in with me to see how I was doing, and she asked me what I was going to do for self-care that weekend. Not sure what my expression took over my face, but she posed a concept that hadn’t been at the forefront of my thoughts. I think I mumbled something about attending a funeral, and doing the same ol’ chores and errands I do every weekend.

With her gentle suggestion fresh on my mind, that weekend I did splurge and pamper myself. While going for my morning jog, I intentionally smiled and appreciated all of nature. After attending that funeral I indulged in a little retail therapy which I was going to do online, but opted instead to enjoy a little bit of time walking around the stores instead. And I listened to my internal dialog and spent extra time writing.

Gratitude is about shifting your attention to appreciation for what is there, for what you are and what you have. And Kimberly helped me shift my focus to appreciation, to enjoying life, appreciating nature’s surroundings, and to allowing myself to slow down and to spend a little time on myself.

All the robins are busy in my front yard, the tulips are starting to grow, and I’m hoping the weather becomes more cooperative and that I can get a garden planted this year! I hope this month is filled with all sorts of things that bring a smile to your heart.


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Happy New Year!

What will 2019 bring? For one thing, it will bring 365 days of opportunities.  In past years, there were plenty of New Year’s met without any goals or resolutions. I would easily fall back to my old standby “to be a better person than I was the previous year.”   As with many resolutions it was made with good intentions. Even though it was one that didn’t require much effort as I always strive to be a better person every day.

This year… I do have some things on my calendar that I am looking forward to. First being a trip to AZ to celebrate my father’s 90th birthday with him. My son, sister and hopefully my brother and nephew will be there as well. I’m also looking forward to teaching more this year. This past November I held a Reiki I class, I hadn’t taught Reiki in a couple of years and it felt truly wonderful to teach again. And this year I’ll be teaching more classes.

After over 2 years of getting established in the healthcare industry, and finding my niche there, I am now really starting to blend my two worlds.

Pondering a New Year’s resolution, I looked to Wiki where they define resolution as a resolve to change an undesired trait or behavior to accomplish a personal goal or otherwise improve their life.  Hmm, ‘improve life’, that’s good. Let’s look at the synonyms for resolution, and I find the words determination and purpose.  Yes, I like that – what is my purpose for this year.  Working in Hospice, it is easy to see what the purpose should be – to enjoy life!  That sounds kind of flippant, but I genuinely mean it.

But how to do this when you have serious problems and stresses, which are extremely difficult, hard, and overwhelming? It’s easy to say, go take a walk outside and notice the insects and rocks on the ground where your about to step. Look at the sky and the clouds, what do you see in them? Do you recognize any of the birds you see or hear? Feel the winds on your face and smell the air. Where are your thoughts meandering to? For me this is at the top of my list of pure enjoyment – but maybe that does not bring any pleasure to you at all.  And in no way am I offering a Pollyanna opinion.  Another way of looking at this is to look for and recognize these moments and be fully present in these moments.  Maybe better said is to make a priority of finding moments of enjoyment, doing some little things that bring you happiness.

The numerology for 2019 is a 3 year! This triad, the 3 representing beginning, middle and end/father, mother, child/mind, body, spirit, represents creative self-expression, relationships, optimism, and inspiration.

Wishing you much peace and all the best in 2019!


“Keeping Quiet” by Pablo Neruda

Now we will count to twelve and we will all keep still.

For once on the face of the earth, let’s not speak in any language; let’s stop for one second, and not move our arms so much.

It would be an exotic moment without rush, without engines; we would all be together in a sudden strangeness.

Fishermen in the cold sea would not harm whales and the man gathering salt would look at his hurt hands.

Those who prepare green wars, wars with gas, wars with fire, victories with no survivors, would put on clean clothes and walk about with their brothers in the shade, doing nothing.

What I want should not be confused with total inactivity. Life is what it is about; I want no truck with death.

If we were not so single-minded about keeping our lives moving, and for once could do nothing, perhaps a huge silence might interrupt this sadness of never understanding ourselves and of threatening ourselves with death. Perhaps the earth can teach us as when everything seems dead and later proves to be alive.

Now I’ll count up to twelve and you keep quiet and I will go away.

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I have Louise Hay’s Heart Thoughts in my bathroom, and each morning I open to a random page to read and ponder. This morning I opened to the subject Time. She writes:

I am here at the right time.

We are all on an endless journey through eternity and the time we spend on this plane of action is but a brief instant. We choose to come to this planet to learn lessons and to work on our spiritual growth, and to expand our capacity to love. There is no right time and no wrong time to come and go. We always come in the middle of the movie and we leave in the middle of the movie. We leave when our particular task is finished. We come to learn to love ourselves more and to share that love with all those around us. We come to open our hearts on a much deeper level. Our capacity to love is the only thing we take with us when we leave. If you left today, how much would you take?

Sometimes I have felt oddly out of place in my life, and other times I know I’m right where I need to be.  In my young adulthood, I truly felt like I was born too late.  Perhaps the better way to articulate is to say I felt that I should have been born in the 50’s rather than the 60’s. I felt all that happened in the 60’s were definitely the environment I wanted to appreciate and be a part of at a more mature age.

In the 1980’s and 90’s I was quite unsettled and impatient. It was a time of searching – for a different life, for spirituality and knowledge, and in retrospect – searching for my true me.  Then the first dozen or so years of 2000 was so heavy with commitment, change, and some very heavy stuff. All that “stuff” is what has led me to the life I have now.  Sometimes I catch myself going down the ol’ what if road: what if I hadn’t sold the store, what if I had gone to nursing school earlier when the desire first bloomed, what if we hadn’t invested with that particular guy. Chasing my own tail is something I can get stuck doing, if I don’t straighten myself out of it.

So reading Louise Hay’s inner wisdom words on time has been good for me.  This year I find myself in a place I hadn’t previously envisioned. I ended up in a job that although I fervently fought it so much in the beginning, has turned out to be such a blessing.  And of all the jobs in my life, I sincerely feel that I am here at the right time.

Changing subjects now, I know the holidays are not fun or happy or good for a lot of people. I know this time of year can be very depressing or lonely and hard. During these hard times, I hope you find the strength to look back at happy memories, to revisit feeling good especially during this time of year; and to tap into your creative and playful self to build new moments and memories that help you.

I sincerely hope everyone finds opportunities to play this month – after all, isn’t this the month for festivities.  And as always, I wish you much peace and joy this month.

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Yesterday I was being treated to the most wonderful reflexology treatment here at my house. We had begun and were well into my one foot when it sunk into me that Winnie was whining and crying unlike she’s ever done. I knew she wanted to come out with us, but this was moving into more of a desperation cry. So we stopped to go get her and found her stuck in between the posts of the gate! Her head, both front legs and shoulders were on one side of the rungs, and the rest of her on the other side.  With a few panicked calls and an extra set of hands, we successfully pushed the rungs apart and backed her out of the gate. I’m still watching her to make sure she hasn’t hurt anything, and that she’s ok. My poor puppy! And dear sweet Norma not only supported Winnie with her gentle and calm energy while we rescued her, but then was able to take my right back into the wonderful treatment to finish, only with Winnie in with us after that.

In a few weeks it’ll be the vernal equinox and we’ll officially be in summer.  The weather sure hasn’t felt like summer!  I’ve been reading that June will host several astrological events.  From what I’m understanding there have been several planets that were retrograde, but many of them will become direct this month. Jan Spiller is the astrologer I most often consult, and reading her Astrological Edge for June provides me with a little glimmer of hope that I’ll find a little clarity this month.

While I had some wonderful things in May (my father visiting and my birthday just to name a couple), I’m still burdened with the career change I made this year. I am still actively trying to make it better. So I have hopes for what June holds for me.

Wishing you a fun filled month of clarity!

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Summer has finally arrived after such a long and very wet spring.  This past Saturday, Memorial weekend, I was at Inner Equinox giving Animal Totem readings. What fun! It has been a long time since I’ve sat and gave readings.  I saw some old friends and made some new.  It’s been a few years since I’ve been on the island on Memorial weekend.  When I was in the planning stages of opening Whispering Hoop, I was instructed to watch the potential store site and count how many people went into the store and how many people came out with a purchase. That was one of my first assignments I took in creating my store. I did that Memorial weekend 2004 – a lot has happened in these last 12-years.

I had such a lovely May. I flew down and spent mother’s day weekend with my son. To go down in the middle of all that rainy weather to the warm sunny climate of Florida was a welcome reprieve. I was able to spend some time with two of his very close childhood friends and the families they’ve created. To see these men that I knew as boys filled my heart with such happiness and pride.  Oh, and to hear new stories that mothers don’t necessarily need to hear of what troubles they got into as teens!  I also had a really spectacular birthday. Who knew turning 53 would be so special and fun?  Oh, my revised website is live, please check it out and let me know what you think.

The end of December and into January I had a renewed spirit and some clear thoughts on new ambitions and goals. I am now taking steps towards these, and that started with taking classes at CSM. The first class I took totally reinforced my thoughts and I knew through and through how good this felt.  I’m getting ready to start the next round of classes and they’re quite intense, especially on top of my full time job. I had various angles of worry and doubt about being able to do this!  Being able to keep up with the schedule AND my job. Will my menopausal brain be able to learn and remember all I need to in such a short time? It would mean I wouldn’t have any time for my husband and my puppy.  But the only path is this class.  When the class became available during the nights and weekends, I knew I had to jump. Still with a lot of trepidation – until I read the following posted on Facebook.


Using that acronym has helped tremendously! Remembering when I opened the store, I didn’t try to do everything at once; I broke everything down into steps and took one step at a time. This acronym is helping me only in a slightly different way. This time I’m using it to support and encourage my aging self-confidence.

That being said, I will be extremely busy this summer. The classes run mid-June into September.  I will not be holding the New Moon Hoop in July or August, and I’m not sure about September. I’m thinking I probably won’t be writing during these months either.  Even in the midst of this, I will have a little time with my best friend. While we won’t have time to hit the water park this year, I know being together will produce just as much fun.

Whatever you have planned for this summer, I hope you fit in some fun! Summer is the position of youth, playfulness, and trust! Enjoy~

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When the weatherman on tv said that this is the season of change, he got my full attention. Of course he’s talking meteorologically, but I’m thinking about myself. I love the choice of words people use, and how they can mean very different things to different people. I do feel that I am in the middle of change.
One aspect of this change I feel is with my job. It was a very big change for me to go back to the corporate work place after the store. Well, working for Barrie was a pleasure too; and even though that was an office, she is truly exemplary to work for. But going back to a full-time office job in a fairly decent size company did jar me out of the healing, empowering environment/job I had grown quite used to. I had adjustments bringing my tattooed and Reiki-minded self into an office with your mainstream people. And I reverted back to some old tendencies – shyness and taking a long time to feel “a part of.”
I look at these parts of myself and remember they were there when we moved from state to state, when I wasn’t able to really establish any deep friendships. For a stretch of time, I never felt a part of any place we lived. In 5th grade I went to three different schools in three different states! I understand how this protective side of me jumped up when I felt venerable again, when I was new to the established office.
Well to show you how this has all changed in a relatively short two and a half years – just yesterday, two friends/co-workers and I went to our new office and smudged and blessed the building! Yes, the owner was completely onboard with this, and he would have helped us if he had not had previous commitments.
Here I held my authentic self back when I first started there – not so much for fear of being judged, but because of not feeling safe enough to really trust that I would be “a part of.” So I thank my 5th-grade self for being so ready to help me again, when she was so insecure starting someplace new again. And I hold my authentic self’s hand and help her feel wanted and a part of this office.
On another note – I am not going to hold Hoop in April. I am taking a class at CSM, and finishing up an online class at Harvard. I struggled with this decision, because I so want to sit in Circle with you ladies! However, my sleep requirements have more of an impact on my brain functions these days. So we will resume in May.

Wishing you the ability to learn from this season of change, and that the change be wonderful!

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Happy New Year!!! What a year 2015 has been. Marvin’s heart attack and surgery, and then my job were the two ‘big’ events that come to mind first when I think back on this year. But those two hefty things aren’t the only things. There were lots of great things too; like visits with my best friend and my son, playing at a water park, a new tattoo (oh, and it’s felt like so long ago that I got one!), a Spirit Doll workshop that was magically fantastic, a cruise to the Bahama’s (Mama’s thick and Papa’s got a shotgun)… and many really great weekends with my grand-chickadee’s. So what’s in the future for 2016? Don’t know, but I am heading into the new year with new ambitions, new goals, and renewed spirit.

I received a few books for Christmas. The first one was a book I bought for myself, The Energy of Prayer by Thich Nhat Hanh. This book is so good that I’m buying one for my sister and one for Barrie. So Christmas morning one of the first presents I opened was from my best friend and it is ‘A Book of Angels’ by Sophy Burnham. Great subject and I can’t wait to read it. The next present I opened was from my brother, he gave me two books – one of them being on – – yep, you guessed it – – angels! It’s ‘Spirit guides and Angel Guardians’ by Richard Webster. I could have been knocked over with a feather. On the back covers of each of these books are, “Where Heaven and Earth meet in all our lives, we see the work of Angels…” and “You are not alone!” I love it! I think you can see where my renewed spirit was generated from!

Walking Winnie this afternoon, thinking about what all I wanted to say in this newsletter, I spotted a huge Eagle in a tree along the fields by my house. By the way, the second book from my brother was Power Animals by Steven Farmer, PhD. So this is what Dr. Farmer has to say about Eagles:

“Whether or not you’re aware of it, you have complete access to an awesome spiritual power! When you vision has become too narrow or limited and you can’t find solutions to any of your problems or challenges, take a look from where I can see. Come with me and I’ll take you to the sun and stars. You must have the courage to relinquish stale and comfortable habits and beliefs and soar into unknown realms and new realities, continually expanding your view. Now is the time to take full responsibility for your lif and to to be prepared for instant karma. As your spiritual awareness increases, so will positive and negative repercussions become more immediate and have greater force.

“When you have to make a choice, no matter how large or small, first hover above all the possibilities laid out before you. Then choose one, and go for it wholeheartedly and without equivocation. Don’t let material concerns keep you from soaring!”

Mish, what were we talking about at lunch?! Ok then, hears to all of us taking that grander view and going for it!

I sincerely wish you very good health and profound peace.

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